The headache I felt prior was indeed no headache at all, but the feeling of me spinning. I had found myself on a merry-go-round. Like anyone who teeters on the edge of a spinning merry-go-round, I was terrified. The fear of falling off seized me and I desperately looked for something to hold on to. That's when I saw Him.
Jesus was in the center of this ride. In the center of a merry-go-round it is safe, secure, and fun. So there was my answer, what I was looking for to hold on to. I needed to get to the center. However, when I tried to take a step toward Him, something pulled me back. When I looked around, evil spirits were there, waiting to pull me back. I looked in a panic at Jesus and He calmly smiled at me and opened His arms. I looked around and handlebars appeared for me to cling to. As I looked at them, I saw things such as family and friends- things that bring me closer to Jesus and stabilize me on the ride of life- on them. Each time I dismissed an evil spirit, it would let me go and I could take one step closer. Finally, I reached the center and fell into Jesus' welcoming embrace. He held me close and told me:
"Jessica, I love you. I have been waiting for you. I know that life gets hard and is
crazy at times, but as long as you keep me at the center, you are safe. With me,
nothing can harm you. Work to get to this center every day. I have so much
planned for you, and you just need to trust me. I have placed people and things in
your life to help you along the way. Remember to always walk to me, even in the
most difficult times and I will help you. I love you my child."
In that moment, I was the happiest I have ever been in my life. It was only for a short time, but I caught a glimpse of heaven and what is to come. God's love is beyond anything that I can describe. I was so full of joy and love that I could not contain it and started laughing.
Life is like a merry-go-round. We are constantly spinning, with the possibility of flying off at any moment. We can choose to be afraid and live a life full of fear and on the edge or to be in the center and live a life full of happiness and love. God gives us the choice. He gave us Jesus, the center, the rock. Without Him, we are on the edge, being pulled by our own evil and sin. But Jesus is there, waiting with open arms wanting to give us the happiness we desire. He gives us our family, friends, things we love to stabilize and help us. Much like the handlebars, they help us to stay on even when we are in the greatest danger of flying off. They are there to help us take those steps to get to the center, to Him. We simply need to trust in Him. Always. For it is in Him that we are fulfilled. He wants us all to experience His love.
On the merry-go-round of life, I choose to live in the center. Where do you want to be?
Nice blog ;)
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